Berkeley

I’ve applied to thousands of jobs. I graduated 5 months ago from Berkeley. I have 2-3 internships under my belt, and a number of projects I’ve worked on since high school. Instead of just wasting away, I decided to build a project that I had enough faith could pan out as a startup, and I’m doing it. I got 120 users within 2 days of my first public market test. I’m building relentlessly, and I got interviews at two startups. Three other companies reached out to me. For the first time in months, I actually had hope. I felt like I had a shot. Yesterday, the startup that had the culture and the work I’ve always dreamed about working at rejected me. The other one ghosted me. Why? Not because I was bad, or because I failed the interview. They just wanted someone with more experience on their stack. All those interview requests went the fuck away. I think that stung more than anything. I put in the work, so much work. I didn’t even fail through any fault of my own. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I really really don’t. Since that, I think I’ve actually applied to 145 apps in the past 2 days. I’ve reoptimized my resume 3 times in the past 2 days, which makes this my 30th iteration. I did everything I was supposed to do. I just want a job. I want to start my life. Forgive me for feeling sorry for myself. I just needed to do that this once. I’ve been so stoic and determined for five months, and now I get it.