I just established I’ll never get to be a SWE

Graduated BS CSE at top 30 school 3.8 gpa Worked in IT dev at large US automotive for 3 years Currently MSCS at top 5 school with 4.0 gpa Now I’ve been unemployed after layoffs for almost two years US

Graduated BS CSE at top 30 school 3.8 gpa Worked in IT dev at large US automotive for 3 years Currently MSCS at top 5 school with 4.0 gpa Now I’ve been unemployed after layoffs for almost two years US-born and based I’ve submitted over 2,000 applications just in the past 6 months, so far, maybe 10 interviews. I’ve been desperate on LinkedIn, went to networking events, had resume workshops with recruiters and my uni and they’ve said it’s good. Ghosted after every phone screen. So far, one final interview at large healthcare company, and it was with the CTO, and he asked me the hardest technical questions I couldn’t answer and he was visibly upset. The job posting was as general as ever and didn’t mention anything he asked. It didn’t mention a requirement or any software experience. He asked if I have interests in AI, and I said sure, and proceeded to pull out a final exam for me. This wasn’t an AI role. Why am I not allowed to show interest in things. I don’t know how I got that first job, but I’m genuinely outclassed by high schoolers now. I’m too far into this, and I’m realizing that I’ll never be smart enough to make it. It’s not even about leetcode anymore. They all expect me to have things not on my resume or the job description. My brain can’t be developed anymore and I’m just not smart enough for this field. I can’t even get a job in IT because they all want me to know how to build an LLM from a box of scraps. I’d fucking work for Russia at this point. I should have never got this degree. I hate it so much. wtf do I do